Say What?

My energy reserves are at low tide today. I had plans to get out and walk this morning followed by a TNG ride with friends in Northfield tonight but I'm laying low. It's a cool, blustery, and overcast afternoon. I just don't have it in me to battle the wind tonight. My body thanks me because I've not taken a day off from working out since the end of January. My meditation streak remains alive at 57 consecutive days.  I'm enjoying my walks so much lately, especially now that most of the walking paths are clear of snow and ice. While on my walks I've been listening to books on my Audible app. Most of what I've been listening to have been books related to Christianity as I try and make sense of my faltering beliefs: When Everything's on Fire ; Do I Stay Christian and The Case for Christ . They're thought-provoking books but still, I find myself where I was before reading them; leaning ever more in the direction of agnosticism with a budding fascination...

It's been 3 years since my last cluster headache phase, leaving me with a foreboding sense that another round of headaches can't be too far off. I'm glad that I've made it this long free from them because ten years ago I could expect a cycle of headaches to appear every 15 months, give or take a few months. They're incredibly disruptive to my life, leaving me anxious as I await the next attack and leaving me somewhat tethered to an O2 tank for relief from a headache once it starts. (High doses of oxygen at the rate of 15 liters per minute can work miracles at aborting a cluster headache attack.) The search function of my blog will reveal some extensive writings I've done about my headaches, or, you can read this post  from 8 years ago which will give you an idea of what they are. Toward the end of the post I linked to above, I talk about psilocybin mushrooms and LSD and the success that's been had by the use of these psychedelics in aborting headache phase...